23 Feb 2015

The late summer garden is a little weary of the heat and lack of rain. 
Lack of rain mainly I think is the problem.
No watering ever does as good a job as the rain.
These long summer days, when it's too hot to be outside for long unless you are in water, are great for thinking and dreaming and reading.

I have been spending quite some time thinking about the why of what I do, I mean doll making. I have been reading a book that was recommended to me called Start with Why
and it has caused lots of thinking which is a good thing.

This is what I first wrote down before I read the book, this is what I thought was my why...

Why do I make my dolls?
Because I can't not make them, I have to be making dolls.

I don't have an altruistic reason for why I make my dolls. 
I make them because I can't not make them. 
It really is all about me. 
Discovering Waldorf dollmaking was like coming home to my happy place.
 It is as though all the things I have done in my life, all the skills I practiced making and sewing and knitting even people watching and studying movement as a physiotherapist were all for when I discovered dollmaking. my reasons, the why of my work it seems are all about me.
 That is the selfish essence of my work.
I stand as an example of someone who took a leap into the unknown, left a very wellpaying job and became the thing that makes me happiest, a dollmaker.

I also wrote this...

I am quite comfortable with not being altruistic
Someone said some very wise words when I first quit work as a physio to become a dollmaker because I felt very selfish then, leaving the breadwinning entirely to my husband.
She said that it takes great courage to follow a dream and I should tell people what I have done and perhaps inspire others to do the same ( though I had the safety net of a wage earning husband so perhaps not quite so brave).
She said imagine a world where everyone truly loved the work they did.

That was 10 years ago and I have worked bloody hard since then to make my dollmaking a success and I am proud of what I have achieved.
I am also beyond grateful that the little beings I create have found a loyal audience who love them as much as I do and are willing to support my work both monetarily and also with enthusiastic comments, emails and letters.

So now I have finished reading the book and I made notes as I went along.
I want to read back over them and have a think and let things settle 
and then I will write my Why once again and see if it has changed.
Stay tuned.

3 Responses to “Why?”

  1. Thank you for sharing your "why's" or should that be "wise" thoughts. I never realised that you planned to be a dollmaker, I thought it just kind of grew from your love of the craft and the fact that you had the time to devote to it. But to know that you always dreamed of and planned to create for yourself a career out of your passion is so inspiring. I was surprised when you told me that you make about 70 dolls each year, that's awesome. I think it's great that you are sharing this story, because we do need to hear that with a dose of determination, passion, hard work and commitment we can make our dreams come true.
    cheers Kate

  2. A wonderful post, Jenny, and very thought provoking. I will try to find this book in our library. But I understand the inner need to make dolls; I cannot imagine not making them!



  3. Thank you for sharing your story, Jenny. Yes, that was brave of you to leave a well paying job to follow your dream/plan of becoming a dollmaker. It is wonderful to see that you have achieved what you have worked so hard for and that you love your work.


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