The late summer garden is a little weary of the heat and lack of rain.
Lack of rain mainly I think is the problem.
No watering ever does as good a job as the rain.
These long summer days, when it's too hot to be outside for long unless you are in water, are great for thinking and dreaming and reading.
I have been spending quite some time thinking about the why of what I do, I mean doll making. I have been reading a book that was recommended to me called Start with Why
and it has caused lots of thinking which is a good thing.
This is what I first wrote down before I read the book, this is what I thought was my why...
Why do I make my dolls?
Because I can't not make them, I have to be making dolls.
I don't have an altruistic reason for why I make my dolls.
I make them because I can't not make them.
It really is all about me.
Discovering Waldorf dollmaking was like coming home to my happy place.
It is as though all the things I have done in my life, all the skills I practiced making and sewing and knitting even people watching and studying movement as a physiotherapist were all for when I discovered dollmaking. my reasons, the why of my work it seems are all about me.
That is the selfish essence of my work.
I stand as an example of someone who took a leap into the unknown, left a very wellpaying job and became the thing that makes me happiest, a dollmaker.
I also wrote this...
I am quite comfortable with not being altruistic
Someone said some very wise words when I first quit work as a physio to become a dollmaker because I felt very selfish then, leaving the breadwinning entirely to my husband.
She said that it takes great courage to follow a dream and I should tell people what I have done and perhaps inspire others to do the same ( though I had the safety net of a wage earning husband so perhaps not quite so brave).
She said imagine a world where everyone truly loved the work they did.
That was 10 years ago and I have worked bloody hard since then to make my dollmaking a success and I am proud of what I have achieved.
I am also beyond grateful that the little beings I create have found a loyal audience who love them as much as I do and are willing to support my work both monetarily and also with enthusiastic comments, emails and letters.
So now I have finished reading the book and I made notes as I went along.
I want to read back over them and have a think and let things settle
and then I will write my Why once again and see if it has changed.