Up hideously early,
woke in a sweat,
night sweats they call them,
thank you very much Mrs Menopause
I was enjoying my sleep.
Sit at the computer reading other people's words because somehow, in the witching hours between 3 and 5 am it is easier to read a glowing screen than the words printed on paper.
There is a rhythm to my sleeping,
early early mornings,
sleep in mornings,
normal mornings,
early early,
sleep in,
normal
round and round.
Waking in a sweat, needing a drink of water, a cup of tea.
Sometimes the very early hours are a gift, lots of thinking time and once my eyes have caught up with my body there is creating time as well.
Sometimes the very early hours are a curse, too many dark and hopeless thoughts, not so often but sometimes.
Remember,
remember those times getting up to little ones,
trying to stay as asleep as possible so that it was easier to get back into your dream when your head hit the pillow again,
sometimes jolted fully awake though by the realisation of how precious this little person was.
These days I get up to attend to myself.
Must remember to care for myself as well as I cared for my little ones.
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I'll think of you when I'm sitting staring at my computer screen at 3:00 a.m.....:) Some nights I wonder why I even bothered going to bed LOL
ReplyDeleteAh Jenny, night sweats are no fun, as I know too well. You are utilizing your time better than I did; early morning reflections are no bad thing.
ReplyDeleteHope you sleep well tonight.
Beth
Must remember to care for myself as well as I cared for my little ones.
ReplyDeleteSuch true words Jenny. Hope your day goes well, despite the early start.
cheers Kate
Sweet Jenny, I am thinking of you and can relate to the many changes your body is going through. I am past that time in life, but I remember it well.
ReplyDeleteSending you hugs and caring thoughts.
Rosemary
I hope your menopause is as short as mine was.
ReplyDeleteOh dear. That does not sound fun at all. I guess those of us with young babies often think we are the only ones up in the wee hours; but now I will be thinking of you too when I am up with Ginger in the middle of the night.
ReplyDeleteI can relate totally....At least you are making wonderful and magical use of your time awake with your lovely little dolls....I hope you sleep well tonight!
ReplyDeleteThese days, the falling asleep business is my challenge; so many thoughts darting through my mind. I'm glad you are tending to yourself; I also need to remind myself to take care of myself, somehow it is not second-nature like the parenting.
ReplyDeleteI was channeling my "inner Jenny" yesterday with a few friends over for doll-making; stressing the care with which each stage should be taken, slowly and thoughtfully. The sweet doll you made for Hana was set out on the table as an example, along with our son's well-loved mama-made (11 yrs ago!) doll. They looked sweet together. :) Thank you.
Have you considered taking Vitex (also known as Chaste-berry? It is not a hormone but helps your body regulate all those raging hormones that women can have troubles with. I've used it for difficult cycles with great success and recently read that it is good to use for menopause as it helps with night sweats, hot flashes and mood swings.
ReplyDeleteHopefully this season in your life will pass quickly.
Ah yes, I too am going thru the blankets on, blankets off stage, and waking around 3.00am and often moving to the spare room, so as not to wake my husband. And when at work opening the doors & windows claiming it's hot, isn't it?
ReplyDeleteI wish I had some sage advice, but all I can offer are kind words and virtual hugs. And in the States, we like to call them "POWER SURGES"... makes them easier to bear!
ReplyDeletexoxo